Update.... most know...

Wow, had not realized its been THS long...

I've known Bob since we were in high school, I Started dating Bob in 2011.  We talked all the time from May forward, but only friend talk... had our first date in November 2011.  Talk every day since.... He proposed May 2012, we got married June 29, 2012.  Been a good 6.5 months.

Austin is 18 and a senior in high school, dating a sweet girl Carly.  Luke is 8 and in 3rd grade.  Time sure flies.  I have a step son Keith who is 20 (21 in March) and a step daughter Kendra who is 16 in 11th grade and will be 17 in May.  All of them are doing well.

As soon as I remember how to post pictures, I'll get some posted.  :)

Lately

Where to begin...

David and I ... will never be more than email friends if that... I will never go out there again.

D and I ... well, I've finally got him completely out of my mind as well. In talking, I asked if things were ever going to change... he said probably not. FINALLY, the truth from his mouth... Such a weight feels as if its been lifted.

I've started receiving voluntary child support from him. $100 every payday ($200/month) better than what I was getting.

Time to focus on Me and the boys and make us the priority... No waiting around for anyone, no being afraid of saying the right or wrong thing, nothing... when we want to go somewhere, we're not going to have to worry if D is going to stop by. If he comes to see the boys, fine, if we're here, he can see them, if we're not, oh well.

Told him that if he wants to see the boys, call, if they aren't busy, they are more than welcome to go over. He says, just have them call me when they want to come over. I told him they always call, he can pick up the phone from time to time as well.

I got a little aggravated with him the last time we spoke. Austin is taking Accelerated Courses in school, one if I pay $300 he gets 5 college credits for. D asked me 'why is he taking such hard courses? why isn't he taking what normal high school kids are taking' My response was 'because he's smart' Well he said, what will he do when he gets to college. He shouldnt be taking such hard stuff now. I said ... when he gets to college, he'll take HARDER courses and he'll become something in life. He working in a factory.... He'll be doing WHAT HE WANTS!! And as far as the courses that 'everyone else takes in high school' HE ALREADY KNOWS THE STUFF, WHY SKATE THRU!! OMG I was livid. Austin has a plan and goals. He's making every effort to achieve these and I'm very proud of him for taking the steps to become the man he wants to be. He's very determined ... and I know in my heart, he's going to get everything out of life that he wants.

Luke, my sweet sweet talker of a boy is dong pretty good in school as well. He's just as sharp as his older brother, but doesn't have the drive and determination yet that Austin did at this age. Two different boys I know, but so alike in so many ways.

Luke and I talked about school, he's gotten in trouble a few times for talking in class and its only been 2 full weeks of back to school. He knows mouth shut ears open so he can learn. He tried telling me he couldn't learn how to spell the word 'BECAUSE' when I told him mouth shut ears open and listen to what I'm telling him so he can learn to spell this, he sat back and said to me after he SPELLED it within a few minutes, he says 'Mom, that really worked, you are a good speller' LOVE LOVE LOVE that little talker boy.

More later.... work calls.

Mind Games

and now let the mind games begin....

Get a text ... you have mail

Check Mail ... tree down on fence, letting calves out, we'll see what happens.

I respond, if there is a tree down on the fence, is it such a good idea to let the calves out?

Couple days later, I send: Hope you are doing well, havent heard from you. Your decision to not talk.

Yesterday get a text: you have mail
Him: You are the one mad at me, I'm not mad at you.
Me: I'm not mad, I'm upset with the way you were acting and your total lack of disrespect for me. (and I gave all the examples from the previous post)
Him: it was 2 freekin beers. you have no idea how much pain I am in and I hope you never experience it
Me: you are right, I have no idea how much pain you are in, and don't know if you don't tell me.

another text: you have mail
Him: something about God..... when you are at peace with God you are at peace with others....
Me: What is this supposed to mean?

Later on....
Him: You will not be hearing from me by text or email any more.
Me: Take Care
Him: Your decision not mine.....
Me: WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??


Austin says good... I'm glad he's gone.

What is my problem?? can't even keep a single man around. F*$%K!!