Don't worry .....

Things are fine ... I've been behaving ... I enjoy talking to him and visiting with him. If he decides that he's not happy in his marriage, it is not going to be because of me. I'm here to talk to him, to listen to him to be his friend. Do I still have feelings for him, yes ... does he have feelings for me? yes.

What now? We continue to be friends ... talk and take things day by day ... We've cut back, we aren't talking near as much as we had been. The e-mails have slowed down, but the friendship is still strong. I think we're on track for a healthy friendship.

Dennis actually talked to me last Saturday. Its the first time in a month that he even said hello. He also talked to Luke and helped him with his bowling. I don't know how long this will last, but maybe its a sign of better things. Maybe he and I can once again be friends. Somehow I doubt it since he still doesn't talk to his xwife after 20+ years, but stranger things have happened.

I have a friend, Shawn, a couple years younger than me, who is going thru a break up with his girlfriend ... he and I have talked a lot lately too ... he tells me he doesn't know what he'd do if he didn't have me and our friend Laura to talk to ... he's a sweet heart ... my heart aches for him.

Lets see ... what else ....

My boys are doing fantastic! Luke is LOVING preschool! Austin is LOVING Jr. High! AND btw ... when he got his progress report, he was making straight A's ... quarter ended yesterday, looks like he may still have those A's!!! :D

I'm contemplating taking a new job here ... its basically the same thing that I currently do, but this job I'd have 13 techs work FOR me. I know I could handle it, but it would be increased travel, and right now, they tell me its a lateral move, no additional money. I'm holding out to see how bad they want me to take the job, to see if they will offer some $$$ to go along with it. I'd be pretty far from the MRP on this job (market reference point) ... We'll see. It would be closer to home and a LOT LESS traffic! Its got its pros and cons ... we'll see.