Changes ....

Oh the changes lately ....... The biggest change is Dennis is gone ... he's been out of my life for close to 2 weeks now and I feel really good about it. I have my moments, but who wouldn't after trying to hold onto something for 17 years.

I have found that I'm sleeping better at night, I'm getting up before the alarm rings and out of the house in record times lately.

I've been going to the track at night too .... I've walked about a mile a day for the last 3 days ... not including the extra little walks I have been taking at work for a little me time away from the techs.

I haven't been hungry either ... I have my ice tea and a breakfast sandwich in the morning, some more tea at lunch time with a little something and I'm good till I get home.

Things at home have been better too ... I'm finding a little more patience than I had before ... how? I'm not sure ... maybe its talking to my fireman friend ...

Speaking of my fireman friend ... today Austin smashed his finger in the door, called me screaming that his finger was bleeding really bad ... I tell him what to do and call my friend and ask him to give Austin a quick call ... he did, told Austin almost exactly the same thing I said and Austin calmed down considerably. Austin said later that he was happy that my fireman friend called to talk to him. He was totally impressed that a guy that I talk to would have some interest in him and his well being ....

My fireman friend and I have had some talks ... boy do I miss him ... I wish we could go back in time, knowing what we know now and do it right ... stay together ... I could wish on that forever ... it won't change the fact that we didn't ... that we were too stubborn to see that we had what it takes to make a great couple, a great partnership. We have a strong friendship going, I don't want to blow that ... he's a great guy ... I'm lucky to have him in my life. I really am. He makes me want to be a better me .... I love him for that! I really do!

Patience .... just a little patience .... everything will work out the way its intended .... thats what I'm told anyway ....