So, we talked ....

I got a few e-mails from my first love .... he's so happy.... and I'm happy for him. He's got 5 KIDS!! 5 .. No Lie! The oldest boy is his wife's from her first marriage, the next boy is his from a previous relationship. They have 3 together, 2 girls and a boy. He sent me a picture of his wife and kids ... they all look happy and healthy! We talked this morning on my way to work, I left late because of meetings ... he sounds good. We both have grown up quite a bit since we dated in high school. You think you don't change, but you really do. He turned 40 2 weeks ago, he rides his bike 12 miles a day or more when he's not at the firehouse. I can't even begin to tell you how good he sounded on the phone. He called ME at lunch time.

We just talked about how we hurt each other and different things that happened in our relationship. Things that made us stronger and things that stung. He told me that when I asked him a question, he always answered me truthfully, he said that he hoped I knew that. He told me that he thought when I went to Seattle to see him that I would stay there with him and not come back home. I still needed to finish high school, I couldn't do that, though the thought did cross my mind. He said that he wanted to marry me when I was there but was glad that we didn't cause we still had growing up to do.

He was kinda suprised that I wasn't married. He figured someone would have swept me up a long time ago. I told him that Monica isn't good at making good decisions for Monica, that she follows her heart instead of her head. I explained my life to him, I think he was suprised.

His wife knows that we are talking. I made it clear to him that I didn't want anything to happen that would get him into trouble ... been there, done that ... anyway, she knows that we are e-mailing each other, talking on the phone and even going to have lunch. Julie's a nice lady. I've met her before and she makes Jim happy. That is the most important thing, she makes him happy.